Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Pray More, Worry Less


   So, I've been on a little hiatus and I needed it. I am feeling like I have nothing to write about. Normally I try to keep this as a journal, maybe even a diary, but when I put my feelings and thoughts out "there" people whom I know in real life are able to read about what's going on inside of me, and that is hard at times. I will start by saying that I didn't ever want this blog to be about my infertility, it sort of just happened because I am struggling with infertility and it's on my mind 45% of everyday.

   I took a blogging break to begin in vitro fertilization. We began as soon as my most recent miscarriage ended. When I first took the hiatus I was planning on writing this blog post about the whole process and post pictures of my injection site, the embryos, all of the medications, and then finally a picture of our little baby or babies first ultrasound picture. God had other plans for us. After two failed cycles of IVF we are here, not pregnant.

   My husband and I have learned a lot about our faith, our love for each other, and that God will take care of us. There has been heartache yes, and I have been weak, but with God's grace I have the strength to continue on this journey. Right now after three and a half years of negative pregnancy tests, and of positive pregnancy tests that ended with angels in Heaven, we need a break.

  During IVF I had to take a break from my weight loss goals and wasn't doing anything in the gym, so now I am focusing on my fitness journey, again. Blake has been incredibly supportive and takes a late lunch to go to the gym with me (mainly because I am terrified of lifting weights alone...for now).
I am enjoying this time of rest and nurturing my body through exercise and lots of prayer.

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4 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear you had 2 failed IVF cycles during your blogging break. There is really not much that takes away that sting when it happens. I'm glad you've taken the time that you need to yourself, and I hope that focusing on YOU will help you cope with all the feelings you've been dealt lately. Sometimes a break is just what the doctor ordered. Listen to your heart and take care of you. ((HUGS))

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  2. I agree with Emily. Sometimes a break is what you need. I'm glad you are listening tontine body! I am so sorry for your 2 failed IVF's.

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  3. So sorry, Catherine. I'm glad you're back blogging again. I've missed you. I love the idea of worry less, pray more. It is the only thing we can do. Trust! Hugs to you, friend.

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  4. I am so sorry Catherine. Your faith is inspiring. That's awesome you are getting back into your fitness journey - something you can be in control of. Sounds like you have a wonderful marriage which is something to be so cherished!

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